Recently I had a dream that my cousin (the one I’ve traveled with and done so much with) got engaged. I messaged her in the morning to let her know any details I could remember from the dream. And then I pressed forward, using this as the opening for a conversation that was hanging over me, ready to be had. And here is an edited version of my side of it:
I was happy for you
Although it was a mental adjustment. Lol.
Sometimes I think about it
A little hard to go there tbh
Being “left behind”
Even if it’s for the biggest simcha in the world
Just to be transparent
Although I daven for you
And I will be so happy for you I mean it
It’s just life has been this way for so long just the prospect of that mental adjustment is daunting
I guess it’s just lingered for a long time unsaid and my dream last night is making me say it
It really helped me to put this out there and I’m glad we shared our feelings while emotions were not high and it was theoretical. I’m sharing because maybe you relate and have these unsaid conversations weighing on you, and maybe having some language to work off of helps.
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